1. |
Essence ft Anohni
01:05
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you’re really a part of that
this new generation of dreaming and thinking
about trans identity.
which isn’t about this revelation of transformation
but really just a continuing conversation about essence
society’s still in the most rudimentary phase of embracing
a trans person and it has to be a person that’s desexualized
it has to be someone that’s like sexless but maternal
can still be pretty but not sexually threatening
it’s so frustrating at the same time because
I do feel like some of our greatest artists and assets
are being undervalued in our society
It’s like a level of feminine power that you’re embodying
that really does scare the shit out of some of those guys
that aren’t comfortable
And it’s not about passing it’s about power
It’s so simple it breaks them all down
It breaks down their whole system of the binary
It breaks down everything that their little tiny myopic lives
are built on
they don’t wanna know that they could fall in love with you
and that they want to fall in love with you
it’s gonna totally deconstruct the fabric of their heterosexual
nuclear lives
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2. |
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I pump down the block wielding power in my body
I feel like the queen supreme as they holler at me
some they say it’s such a shame because I hypnotize voodoo
boo hoo
hi def feminine
it’s so damn evident
hi def feminine
are you still relevant
tits up high my waist cinched hair a long jet black ocean
hits the small of my back watch it move in slow motion
some may say that I’m afraid to use my mind but I do fine
fine line
hi def feminine
it’s so damn evident
hi def feminine
are you still relevant
these bitches talk shit cause they know that they could never
the had to unfollow cause my beauty would wreck her
how’s it my fault I’m tighter and wetter
God gave you your pussy shoulda treated it better
now they all wanna fuck me bitches they wanna be me
way you stop and stroke to the magic when I pop on your TV
talk about me day and night bitches so stressed
step up to this bitch in day light you’ll get wrecked
hi def feminine
it’s so damn evident
hi def feminine
are you still relevant
hi def feminine that’s how I be filling in
I bring the boys to the yard my pussy they be swimming in
ocean eyes thick thighs mad when he realize
he want me in the morning not just dreams when he fantasize
waist tight get it right boy you know I’m cryptonite
he might be feeling super but I got him feeling weak tonight
this that femme queen shit have you acting up like a trick and shit
you say you wanna play but you scared of it
but then you hit it from the back while I be in the splits
calling my phone cause you addicted
sipped from the champagne slipper now I got you whipped
you keep coming back when you got the itch
the way you mesmerized boy you’d think I’m a witch
went from a fighting ass faggot to a five start bitch
hating hoes stay mad now watch me get rich
hi def feminine
it’s so damn evident
hi def feminine
are you still relevant
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3. |
Cardboard Box
00:31
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it’s like, I don’t know I always turned a cardboard box
into a mansion
very true
we had that we have that you know that
you know we could be in the most fucked up area
look at you you love to be in that fucked up area
every once in a while
because every time you came down to Sunset you’re like
yo I just wanna get ghetto and we take you to an after hours
and you work the wall
you know that?
you become the biggest hoe on the wall
there you go look at you
look at you
right
but you know know what
but that’s you
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4. |
Cocaíno
03:52
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Toda mi vida
Todo el tiempo
Lo necesito mi Cocaino
Something about the way you top me
Sizzling hot fire indeed
If you don't drop by, I ain't coppin'
Come on, give me what I need
I know you're pushing their suspicious
How you got your eyes on me
Oh, so viciously delicious
How you got me fiending (fiending for that, sweet)
Keep the heat up off the street, don't want no rumors haunting me
Never talk about your bed you said, that's between you and me
Feel the rush it's all in us, so serious so fresh so clean
Boy you got my body hot, I'm sinning
I confess I
I want your sweet Cocaino
When I'm done, I'm gonna want another
I want each, every drop
Oh, I'm not gonna share it's all for me
I want your sweet Cocaino
When I'm done, I'm gonna want another
I want each, every drop
Oh, I'm not gonna share it's all for me (lifts me up, breaks me down)
Never see you on a Monday
Love the way you draw those lines
Underneath see your reflection
As you slay it from behind
Close the curtains 'cause I feel as if the sun is gonna shine
Hope the darkness lasts forever
Oh, you got me fiending (fiending for that, sweet)
Oh, don't stop the music baby
You know that I like it deep
The smoother the tune is baby
Forces me to press repeat
Pick up that Bacardi baby and let's mix it up tonight
With my Cocaino baby, we're gonna be up all night
I want your sweet Cocaino (I want it sweet)
When I'm done, I'm gonna want another
I want each, every drop
Oh, I'm not gonna share it's all for me (all for me)
I want your sweet Cocaino
When I'm done, I'm gonna want another
I want each, every drop
Oh, I'm not gonna share it's all for me (all for me)
(Lifts me up, breaks me down)
All for me (all for me)
All for me (all for me) oh, oh
All for me (all for me)
All for me, all for me oh whoa
Makes me down, oh whoa
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5. |
Alphabet City ft Nems
04:07
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Here’s a little story about how inglorious this city is like
If you’re not a baller 6’2” rollin’ with your crew
you best to fear for your life
Think you’re gonna pass as a victim bitch ‘bout the system
You’re practically dead
Think you’re gonna put in a dent ‘cause of the cheap rent
They’re gonna come for your head
So when you hit A be alert of where you are going
This is not the ave you been forewarned
And when you hit B beware of the things you see
If you fear then I suggest you leave
And when you hit C be cautious of the winding road
This is not your average stepping stone
‘Cause when you hit D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
In Alphabet City
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
In Alphabet City
Here’s another story about how notorious city life can be
Best to hide your luxuries ‘cause here we believe
The best things in life are free
If you stumble accidentally down the wrong street
They’ll eat you up alive
Maybe you can roll with the fittest if after all this
You manage to survive
So when you hit A be alert of where you are going
This is not the ave you been forewarned
And when you hit B beware of the things you see
If you fear then I suggest you leave
And when you hit C be cautious of the winding road
This is not your average stepping stone
‘Cause when you hit D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
In Alphabet City
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
In Alphabet City
Roaming the streets of Alphabet City
Timbs on hoody up it’s about to get gritty
See me and my gun closer than Bobby & Whitney
You might wake up in a tub of ice missing your kidneys
You looking like a victim
You looking like one of these stupid motherfucking
Out of towners Imma get them
Imma stick them and you gon’ be sick
When you’re laying on the ground watching me
Leave with your shit and
A I’m a alpha adrenaline always active
Associated with assholes ready to clap shit
B I be barking on these bitch ass bastards
And dead ass b I’m in the booth with rat shit
C I’m from coward killer Coney Island
Where it’s fuck your life until the casket
Continues to dropping acid
Homey you can’t see up
And if you need more you can suck on deez nuts
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
Nothing’s pretty in Alphabet City singing
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
D you’re a dead man
In Alphabet City
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6. |
The First Time
00:46
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I imagine it must be intimidating to fall for someone
The world tells you is wrong
To lust after something you’ve been taught to believe
Is abnormal
But that makes you feel free, fulfilled and alive
I used the believe love was weakness
But as I began to feel it for the first time
Really feel it
I realized that love was like death
Unavoidable and coming for all of us
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7. |
Someone To Hold
03:58
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We all need someone to hold
We all need someone to hold
Tell me when did I lose my power
Oh when did I lose my faith
Tell me why did I keep believing it’s real
When nothing ever seemed to change
Tell me when did you fight the feeling
Oh when did you shift your eyes
Tell me when did you move onto somebody new
Tell me when did you change your mind
I know you need someone to show off
So you can feel you’re fly
Someone who can go half on a baby
Someone to feed your lies
And I need someone who’s bold
Someone who does right
Someone who makes me strong on the daily
Someone who doesn't lie
We all need someone to hold
We all need someone to hold
We all need someone to hold
We all need someone to hold
Don’t know when you became a disaster
Or when you became a shamed
Thinking you were in tune with me all you could do with me
You threw it all away
Don’t know when you became the player
Or when you became so lame
Don’t know when you turned into every man that I knew
Oh you should be put to shame
I know you need someone to show off
So you can feel you’re fly
Someone who can go half on a baby
Someone to feed your lies
And I need someone who’s bold
Someone who does right
Someone who makes me strong on the daily
Someone who doesn't lie
It’s so easy for you to sit there accusing me
But between the both of us we know the lies you told
And baby yes i’ve already moved on indeed
He does me better than you’ll ever ever know
So go and get someone to show off
So you can feel you’re fly
Someone who can go half on a baby
Someone to feed your lies
‘Cause now I’m with someone who’s bold
Someone who does right
Someone who makes me strong on the daily
Someone who doesn't lie
We all need someone to hold
We all need someone to hold
We all need someone to hold
We all need someone to hold
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8. |
Shopping Cart
00:46
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I used to bring a shopping cart all the time
With food to bring you in the middle of your change
You were still
Hadn’t changed completely
And I saw you in the train
And you looked so sad
You were really sad
You just didn’t wanna
You just didn’t like how you were living
And you were really sad
I could see it in your face
That was a tough time
That was a tough time
Seeing you so sad
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9. |
Sailing
02:51
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Sailing
Sailing
The scales are leaning on one side
And pouring over me
Love was once a friend of mine
But now she’s bored of me
Oh it’s a long hard road
Much harder when standing alone
Tried to build a home
Then watched it float away
Now i’m sailing through this winded pipe
Sailing like a dog who is blind
Sailing sailing through this life of mine
Sailing
I roll and smoke the time away
In hopes to catch a breeze
I tried to look him in the eyes
But they played tricks on me
No where do I belong
I pray just take me away
Get out of town get gone
I heard you all say
So Now i’m sailing through this winded pipe
Sailing like a dog who is blind
Sailing sailing through this life of mine
Sailing
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10. |
Rikers Island
00:26
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There were some guards that were really nice
And they opened up those doors for us
I was in Rikers she was umm
She was very beautiful
We ended up having a relationship hardbody
This is mad years ago I doubt they’re even there
And if they are there they’re probably captains and wardens now
You know what i’m saying
But they opened up those doors
They let us go in there
They let us make out for a little bit
Cause we were real cool you know what I’m saying
We didn’t bother nobody
We’re two latinos that just
That’s in love
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11. |
Be Your Girl
02:34
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Take me slow summer baby
As we lay across the lawn
Sip on lemonade in the shade
No will grow into maybe into something else beyond
Then into your lady in waiting
Then your girl
I just wanna be your world
I just wanna make sure
Every little thing you mean to me
Is all good
I just wanna be your girl
I just wanna be your world
I just wanna make sure
Every little thing you mean to me
Is all good
I just wanna be your girl
Two will fall out of daydream
Underneath the stars above
As day slip and slides into evening
Slumbering into sleep we both begin to dream of love
Final constellation completed
Be your girl
I just wanna be your world
I just wanna make sure
Every little thing you mean to me
Is all good
I just wanna be your girl
I just wanna be your world
I just wanna make sure
Every little thing you mean to me
Is all good
I just wanna be your girl
Time passes slowly yet leaves you behind
Forfeit the promiscuous on your mind
As our souls begin to sing you’ll see what you mean to me
As our souls begin to sing you’ll see what you mean to me
Am I your girl
I just wanna be your world
I just wanna make sure
Every little thing you mean to me
Is all good
I just wanna be your girl
I just wanna be your world
I just wanna make sure
Every little thing you mean to me
Is all good
I just wanna be your girl
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12. |
Company
02:59
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We didn’t make it
Sure enough you and i we had to go
Our separate ways
To look inside we have to grow
Although we’ve changed
And in a different place still I
Miss your company
Company
Finally faced it
Sure enough we couldn’t seem to find
A common place to
Live it up in time we’re flying blind
Before we disgrace it
Moving on but boy how i
Miss your company
Company
No need to define it
Or place in a role
If we should find that it’s too much
Then we’ll let it go
If there’s a time when
You are lost and alone
Baby come to me
Come to me
Oh I really miss your
Really miss your company
Oh I really miss your
Really miss your company
Oh I really miss your
Really miss your company
Miss your company
Company
Won't try to replace ya
There's no one in line I have in mind
In need of space
There’s always distraction in the grind
I can still taste ya
And I won't deny that I
Miss your company
Company
No need to define it
Or place in a role
If we should find that it’s too much
Then we’ll let it go
If there’s a time when
You are lost and alone
Baby come to me
Come to me
Oh I really miss your
Really miss your company
Oh I really miss your
Really miss your company
Oh I really miss your
Really miss your company
Miss your company
Company
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13. |
Woman You Were
00:33
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it became a losing game
their addiction became mine and
knowing I had control of their lives made me feel
powerful
but the end was always the same
and when a lover leaves you alone in the dark
you’ll never be the woman you were
before you gave your light away
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14. |
Didn't I Kill You?
03:33
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Remember when you cried
Remember when you said
You would rather be with me instead
Remember you confessed
Italy Venice
All the shit that you let off your chest
Then I pushed you off the balcony
I told them it was suicide
But now your voice is in my head
And I can’t take it anymore
Even thinking that it’s you there
Knocking at my door
I can’t do this anymore
Why is your dead body
Following
Following
Nah baby is that you?
Nah it cannot be true
Think I’ve gone and lost my mind
Didn’t I kill you
I think of all your lies
Thinking they were true
Conversation we had at Lulu’s
Remember when you told
Me you wanna hold
Onto our affair while you build your home
Think of you hitting that sweet concrete
You finally shut your mouth
But now your voice is in my head
And I can’t take it anymore
Even thinking that it’s you there
Knocking at my door
I can’t do this anymore
Why is your dead body
Following
Following
Nah baby is that you?
Nah it cannot be true
Think I’ve gone and lost my mind
Didn’t I kill you
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15. |
Let's Talk In The Rain
03:53
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now it’s just me and you
aint nobody else to impress
no one knows you better
you’re not telling me the truth
I can see it in your eyes
something’s underlying there
babe I don’t believe in right or wrong
it’s gonna take a lot till you put me out
I promise you that
even if the sun is overgrown
it’s gonna take a lot to leave you alone
gonna take a lot to work it out so let’s go
let’s talk in the rain
I know you’ve seen better days
it’s gonna be alright on the other side
gonna be alright between us after tonight
let’s talk in the rain
I know you’ve seen better days
it’s gonna be alright on the other side
gonna be alright between us after tonight
I don’t need you to confess
just trying to do my best
to make sure you are not alone
I aint trying to compete
can’t nobody ever be me
make a choice then move along
but even if we sink beneath the sea
it’s gonna take a lot to get rid of me
I promise you that
even if this city were to blow
gonna take a lot to leave you alone
gonna take a lot to work it out so lets go
let’s talk in the rain
I know you’ve seen better days
it’s gonna be alright on the other side
gonna be alright between us after tonight
let’s talk in the rain
I know you’ve seen better days
it’s gonna be alright on the other side
gonna be alright between us after tonight
your pain I feel it sing
your pain I feel it sing
your pain I feel it sing
your pain I feel it sing
let’s talk in the rain
I know you’ve seen better days
it’s gonna be alright on the other side
gonna be alright between us after tonight
let’s talk in the rain
I know you’ve seen better days
it’s gonna be alright on the other side
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Nomi Ruiz Brooklyn, New York
Nomi Ruiz broke boundaries as the first latina trans woman to perform on prestigious stages world-wide. She has collaborated with the likes of Anohni, Honey Dijon, Keinemusik, Sam Sparro, Todd Terry. Her original songs have been featured on The American Academy Awards, Rockstar Games Grand Theft Auto and in campaigns for Mugler, Calvin Klein, Dior Homme and Tommy Hilfiger. ... more
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